Why have I lost my drive now that I'm more successful?

You've got more now than you had then. And somehow less fire. Three years ago you were hungry in a different way. Broke, maybe. Certainly uncertain. But you moved. You tried things that might fail because failure felt better than the weight of wondering. Now you've built something. A little stability. A few people counting on you. And that safety net has become a cage. Here is what's actually happening: you've mistaken security for progress. You think the version of you with less to lose was braver, but she wasn't braver - she was just unburdened by the fear of losing what she'd built. Solomon wrote "He that hideth hatred with lying lips, and he that uttereth a slander, is a fool." You're being foolish with yourself. Pretending the problem is time or resources or readiness. The problem is you've made a god out of what you have. The thing you haven't started in six attempts is not waiting for you to be ready. It's waiting for you to be willing to be poor again - not in money, but in certainty. What if the version of yourself three years from now is watching this moment too, wondering what happened to you right here? Blessings - Fountain of Grace International